He is so far in distance but I swear he is so close to my heart. 527, five hundred and twenty seven miles, that’s it, some number and space, yet it held such power over our relationship. I think I knew it wouldn’t matter to me how far he was this one night when I was having a hard day and started crying. Knowing there were many people in my house and in my town to help me or be there for me physically, when I called him and we talked that was all I needed to feel better, although he was worlds apart it didn’t feel like it and I even felt a sense of safety talking to him that day. Love is too strong to be underestimated, it is unexpected, selfless and happiness and that is all I ever got from him, He was never selfish and would always put my needs first, always understanding, I never had to ask him to do a better job because he was the best boyfriend already. Truly a huge blessing and I couldn’t tell you how much I thanked God for him because it was way too many times to remember. I fell in love with his soul and mind before I could fall in love with the touch of his skin, and if that isn’t true love I have no idea what it.. loving him was easy, it was the miles between us that I found hard and some nights even too hard to bare but he was always there to remind me of the big picture, “it will all be worth it” who knew six words could be so comforting and reassuring but they were and that is all I ever needed to hear to realize loving him despite the distance was all worth it. it was worth the losing sleep for, worth the nights I would cry over things we weren’t able to do because we weren’t with each other, worth it all. Worth the nights we lost sleep because those were the nights we shared the most laughs and felt the closest to each while being Facetime, worth those nights i’d cry over things we couldn’t do physically because i’d be more appreciative for what we did have that non-long distance relationships don’t always have, like the strong communication, the massive amount of trust, the fact we fell in love with our minds before our bodies. If i’m being honest I fell in love with so much more than just his mind, yes his mind was exquisite, but I fell in love with his smile, the sound of his laugh and how his voice was home to me, the way he used DMV slang and how cringy it was at times for me but it was so cute, I fell in love with the way he made me feel beautiful without make up, just waking up, anytime or day and it wasn’t just about my face, he made me feel beautiful within, as if there was nothing wrong with the way I was, as if I had no imperfections or flaws. Even on my bad days he made me feel sane and beautiful. I also fell in love with how I made him feel, its cheesy but seriously seeing him smile or laugh because of me was probably one of the best feelings, knowing you can make someone so happy, I live for that. He is the closest thing to perfect to me and I am beyond blessed to have found him in a world with 7.6 billion people, 33.5 million in Canada where I live and 326.5 million in United States, where he lives but yet us two crossed path, still find it insane. 527 miles physically apart, however he stays glued to my heart.
– Jan 29, 2018 @ 3:30 am